15 Weeks

It is only fair to post up belly pictures considering we will find out on Monday if baby is a girl or a boy!

I am so anxious to find out what we're having! What an exciting time for new parents! I am sure everyone reading this with children of their own is probably smiling as they remember their own experiences becoming parents. We are so thrilled! 

Baby is probably around 6 ounces or so already and can possibly even hear my voice! I have been keeping a diet of mostly vegetables, fruits, protein, with oatmeal in the morning. It seems to be doing well because I still have a lot of energy and take tiny naps every day.

Now don't be falsely lead into thinking every day of mine is like this. But as often as I can I take my diet very seriously! I have consistently avoided refined sugar though and I am really glad that my sweet tooth has just about completely disappeared. 

I can still go to the gym although I have cut down my running considerably and I will probably stop running here pretty soon. I love cycling and I go to the cycling class as often as I can throughout the week. 

Daddy's Concerns (14 Weeks)

May 20th, 2012

Every father has concerns about his abilities to be a dad. My husband is no different. I often wonder if our Heavenly Father finds it humorous to watch us struggle with our confidence in parenting. I could imagine him thinking, "Come on, how hard could it be? Your mother and I have trillions of children and you are worried about your ability to raise one??"

Yesterday was my brother Michael and sister in-law Carly's wedding! It was so beautiful to see my sweet brother in the Logan Temple dressed in white and sealed to his amazing bride. 

I was so close to crying during the sweet and reverent ceremony but I was forced to play tough again because I couldn't handle being the only one in the room with tears. I cried like a baby when I got married but Carly and Michael seem to be doing just dandy without a tear in sight. 

Jett and I had such a fun talk on our way back from their wedding. We had just stayed with one of my dearest friends for two days and she and her husband just welcomed a brand new baby boy last month. It was really the first time Jett was able to be so close with a newborn and as I held the sweet baby, Jett couldn't stop smiling at him and playing with his small fragile hands. 

Over the next day or two, Jett was able to hold and cradle the baby and gain experience but his lack of previous exposure definitely showed as he awkwardly cradled the poor child in the palms of his hands.

"You know, when we have a child," Jett said to me, "I won't even know how to hold her safely (he thinks we are having a girl). What if I hurt her?" I tried to be as tender as possible and comforted him by saying that he will kind of just 'know' what to do when she/he gets here. 

I am not sure how to help prepare Jett to become a dad, but I honestly feel that he will be an incredible father if he just stays the way he is. I am sure that our fathers before us never went to a Daddy Prep School or anything. They kind of just learned as they went. Right?

I would post more belly pictures up, but my belly and weight haven't really changed all that much since I took my 9 weeks pregnant belly pictures. 

I am slightly jealous as I see some of my own friends going through the same pregnancy time frame as me with cute little baby bumps. I want one so bad! It is a terrible phase to be pregnant but look like you are just gaining weight around your belly. In my defense of having just a bigger tummy and no bump, at only 14 weeks, the baby is so small that I slightly question my own friends' bumps as legitimate baby bumps. Isn't baby just the size of an apple?

Work with me here.

Defense #2: I have also really watched my diet and I am still regularly going to the gym, so when my bump comes, I will know that it is all baby for sure! (At least I hope so)

Oh Good news! I am not sick anymore! I can eat full meals again! And I sleep straight through the night without waking up as I have been doing this whole First Trimester.

I am now in my Second Trimester and hopefully it won't take as long as the first!

3 Months! (12 Weeks)

Pregnancy takes FOREVER!

As a soon to be mother, I find myself checking out every single pregnancy site and book that I can possibly find. I want to know everything about what to expect and see if their is any new information that I haven't already covered.

I went to see the doctor today and heard their little heart beat! It was so neat! Jett and I couldn't believe that a little baby the size of a gummy bear could already have such a fast and strong heartbeat! The doctor was very kind and let us have a very quick ultrasound so that we could see our little one-even though we didn't have an ultrasound scheduled. 

We will leave him a tip. 

Our Sleeping Angel

What do you think he/she will be? I really thought it was a boy and I still kind of hope that the baby will be a boy...but I am really starting to doubt my confidence in that.

Several nights in a row (soon after proclaiming my desire for a little boy), I began having dreams about myself mothering a little girl. The scary thing that every dream had in common was that I was always watching her grow up so quickly and I would have to let her go.

In my dreams I beg and plead for the chance to keep her and nurture her because she is still so young and can't be expected to lead the world until she is older, but the little girl looks into my eyes with wisdom and strength and tells me that everything will be ok. She tells me that she must leave me because she was sent to Earth in order to help heal the world. 

I always trust her and let her go.

But I never trust the world.

Crazy huh?

Falling Deeper in Love

May 7th, 2012

I can't imagine a marriage without progression. To date for years before deciding if the one you love is right for you just isn't my cup of tea. I love Jett more now than ever and my love for him grows each day as I learn more about who he is. 

Such a charming, kind, and fair man. He reminds me of my dad because he works so hard for the well-being of our family. I have seen him sacrifice everything in order to bring about the greater good of financial freedom and stability in our home. We are so blessed to be able to partake of his goodness and I know that our earthly parents and our Heavenly Parents are proud of what he has done. 

I can't help but fall even deeper in love with this man that I married. 

How in the world did he come into my life? Do I even deserve such a beautiful heart and soul as my companion throughout eternity? 

He is my hero

"Oh sweet child of ours, mommy and daddy love you so much already. You are just the size of a little peanut at 12 weeks old and you are already so cute!  We wonder who you will be and what you will choose to become in this life. Daddy loves you so much, it's really cute to watch. He is working very hard everyday to make sure that we have what we need to survive in this life. Please remember to be grateful for all you have and know that you have our love. "

I pray that our child will be able to find someone to love one day who is as remarkable as their daddy.